Wednes.

I AM SAD

Sleepy panda

Stayed at home today, stayed in bed. And drew some pictures then my lovely boyfriend came over in the afternoon.

Happy Panda

I tried the ugly bikky i did, I have never had before this afternoon thinking ohh what the hell..
Turns out it was the most delicious bikky ever ever, ever!. Now it is my new favourite. That along with some ice tea has made my afternoon wonderful now i am just waiting for my lovely boyfriend to finish work and i am off to his for a star wars marathon and a greeeat weekend :) <3


FRIDAY-
Doubt thou that stars are fiire;
Doubt thou that the sun both move'
Doubt thou to be a liar;
But never doubt that I love.

- William Shakespeare hamlet

<3

I feel even more in love this weekend.

it's done

I turned my back and just walked away.
down into the ditch of today.
darkness.
I throw my self on the bed
onto the mess.
I'm feeling weary
empty.
I have set myself to rest.

having a whinge

So i put on my silk jacket, cream scarf, longish white shirt with a key on it
and jeans and within 10 minutes i feel like a total fucking dickhead.
So i change.
and like always, i put on a black hoodie and jeans.
I hide behind my glasses, and the warn out smile.
I'm really crushed, ridiculous, insecure, dirty, totally unwanted.





I am going to Showcase now.

envious

Actually, I have something to write. Actually a list that one day i hope i can cross them all out.

one day i will:
- Find friends whom i am not envious of.
- Get a job
- Succeed at life
- Prove myself to all those that have doubted me
- Made a really awesome cake
- Have an almost perfect boyfriend
- Have people in my life that treat me properly
- Tell my friends exactly what i think of them.
- Get all the apologies i have deserved in my life.
- Have a day where i am completely happy for it all.
- Lose weight.
- Move away from this depressing town.

weekend

Planned a failed "suprise party" for my 2 friends. which was on friday.
It was okay..
Im still feeling quite depressed and unwanted.
Ill write when i feel happier.