new leason

1. Don't stand on a prostitutes corner.
2. The internet fucking sucks!
3. I'll always be fat fat fat!


Bye forever

Wednes.

I AM SAD

Sleepy panda

Stayed at home today, stayed in bed. And drew some pictures then my lovely boyfriend came over in the afternoon.

Happy Panda

I tried the ugly bikky i did, I have never had before this afternoon thinking ohh what the hell..
Turns out it was the most delicious bikky ever ever, ever!. Now it is my new favourite. That along with some ice tea has made my afternoon wonderful now i am just waiting for my lovely boyfriend to finish work and i am off to his for a star wars marathon and a greeeat weekend :) <3


FRIDAY-
Doubt thou that stars are fiire;
Doubt thou that the sun both move'
Doubt thou to be a liar;
But never doubt that I love.

- William Shakespeare hamlet

<3

I feel even more in love this weekend.

it's done

I turned my back and just walked away.
down into the ditch of today.
darkness.
I throw my self on the bed
onto the mess.
I'm feeling weary
empty.
I have set myself to rest.

having a whinge

So i put on my silk jacket, cream scarf, longish white shirt with a key on it
and jeans and within 10 minutes i feel like a total fucking dickhead.
So i change.
and like always, i put on a black hoodie and jeans.
I hide behind my glasses, and the warn out smile.
I'm really crushed, ridiculous, insecure, dirty, totally unwanted.





I am going to Showcase now.

envious

Actually, I have something to write. Actually a list that one day i hope i can cross them all out.

one day i will:
- Find friends whom i am not envious of.
- Get a job
- Succeed at life
- Prove myself to all those that have doubted me
- Made a really awesome cake
- Have an almost perfect boyfriend
- Have people in my life that treat me properly
- Tell my friends exactly what i think of them.
- Get all the apologies i have deserved in my life.
- Have a day where i am completely happy for it all.
- Lose weight.
- Move away from this depressing town.

weekend

Planned a failed "suprise party" for my 2 friends. which was on friday.
It was okay..
Im still feeling quite depressed and unwanted.
Ill write when i feel happier.

CTS

I have carpal Tunnel syndrome, And it hurts.
Dont take your hands+wrist for granted :(! lol

So Today's been not great. Ive given up on everyone it seems. Weekends bore me. No one wants to see me. This is cool. Even my mums going out. with out me. wooooohooo.

I'll continue to listen to my new songs on itunes for the rest of the day.
Here comes goodbye- rascal Flats.
Coin Laundry-Lisa mitchell
Sweet dreams- Beyonce
Bodies-Little birdy.
Highly recommend them (L) goooodbye :)

The Fred Hollows Foundation'

There should be more people like this in the world.
Fred Hollows you are a hero.

Sunday

Last day of Holidays.
Best way spent.
My sister's keeper.

"My heart is a soft sponge at the base of my throat"

Do you know how sometimes--when your riding you bike and you start skidding across sand, or when you miss a step and start tumbling down the stairs, you have those long, long seconds to know that your going to be hurt, and badly?

50 things

comfortable clothes,coffee,cooking,train rids,fun people,falling,getting high,laughing,good sleep,long texts,dress ups,stockings,gloves,rings,toy swords,pits,camera,fires,medium,Art,no tan,opp shops,dreaming,cigarette kisses,cartoons about rangas,ripping on myself,jumping on Larissa,+90% results in art,getting kicked in the head,questions that never get answered about life,8hr conversations,babies,red nails,destroying,breaking twigs n leaves,soccer,white teeth,jumping,big hugs from people i haven't seen in months,Suicide girls,being the fattest bitch,photographs,Youtube,making people happy,new stuff,accomplishment,sad books,jetties,Boyyyfriend♥

Hero

i love you. Rest in peace.

ten inch hero

After hours of impatience and arguments Teish and I finally got to watch our movie. "Ten inch Hero" Featuring my love "jenson eckles" The most amazing Love story i have ever experienced. Close to the end already in tears i ask her to hold me and we sit there impracing each other tears down our face when everything from the film all unfolds and is just amazing. It made me realize everything happens for a reason even with all the shit things that happens, it leads to something great. We all are just waiting for that to finally happen. I love this.
I love Taleisha Sheree Kwan. My best friend (: